Forgotten

had a long chat with steve about culture shock this week. i think i was visibly frustrated with a few things that had happened and he picked up on it. fair enough, i was in a pretty bad mood. je jad a really personal prophesy for me today which was so accurate i thought 'yeah thats not bad' it described exactly how i feel at the moment and what is going on in my life, it was really encouraging and helpful so ive spent a bit of time thinking about that one. its always good when someone says something like that and it really makes you think and sort yourself out. its especially good because i know i needed to hear it and it came at a good time.

we discussed my role with the kids work and i shared a bit about how its been going. i still really struggle with it and regularly want to quit. to add to that i know im really not gifted in this area, so this is one of the things which has frustrated me this past couple of weels. yet i know that it has relieved a massive part of steves week and im happy to serve. one thing i really felt god speak to me about was about being 'forgotten' it all ties together! 'forgotten by the world remembered by god' i think its true that everyone wants to be remembered and is scared of death because they havent left much of a legacy. thats pretty much how i feel... i was thinking about my great grandparents and that fact that i know nothing about them, in fact i dont even know their names or anything about where they lived or what they did with their lives. this made me think that actually unless we are the president of america all of us are going to be forgotten by future generations, not that anyone knows anything about past presidents or kings etc. quite a sobering thought if you think about it long enough. it puts into perspective the whole 'storing up treasures in heaven' thing and releases you from worrying about tomorow too much, i know im guilty of that.

anyway, as you can tell im feeling philosophical again, and i still cant spell that word.

tonight its time for another instalment of male aggression and competative zeal as cambodias expat elite gather for the weekly and much antisipated football game. thank god for football.

Ben.